My darling, I don’t know if you’re ever going to read this because you don’t use tumblr anymore. I’m going to write it anyways and hope one day you stumble upon it anyway.
It’s 2:15 and I can’t get you off my mind enough to fall asleep. There’s so much I want to say and do to you right now that it’s just unsettling me in the best way possible. It’s been so long since I’ve missed someone so much the instant they left my side, but here I am, going on an hour without seeing you and I’m already going through withdrawal. Pathetic, right? Maybe. But I don’t feel bad about it at all.
I thought I knew what relationships were like since I’ve been in so many, unfortunately; however I’ve never been in one like this. I’ve never felt so secure and trusting in a relationship in my entire life. Not only with our relationship, but with myself I feel this way. You make me feel great about myself and I can honestly say you’re the only boy to ever do that. I feel invincible when you’re around and that’s one of the best feelings I’ve ever felt. You lift me higher than I’ve ever been with any drug and you give me the best fucking feeling in the entire world. There’s so much greatness about you and I cannot believe for a second that luck has finally come my way and I got the wonderful Prince Charming that I’ve always wanted.
You’re so fucking adorable. Not just with your looks, which are so fucking adorable that I can’t stand it, but with everything you do. You say cute things and you do cute things and I’ve really never had someone that did these kind of things. You’ve been significant in my life for about 4 months now and you still give me butterflies every time you look at me with your adorable half smile and your big light-brown eyes. I feel like I can’t breathe, and I know we’ve said that so many times but I still feel that way when you look at me like that. You hold my hand when we’re walking around and you’re not afraid to act all cute in front of our friends and give me little kisses on my forehead that just make me melt. Then you go and buy me little 25 cent little rubber sandwiches and little rubber sodas just add on to how fucking adorable of a boyfriend you are. You even make me soup when I’m sick like you did today! I’ve always wanted someone super cute, and I finally got one that’s cute in EVERY way a boy can be cute. <3 You make my heart melt.
You make me feel so good. You’re always complimenting me and telling me what I do right instead of what I do wrong, which is what I’m used to. This is the first time in years that I’ve felt confident about myself enough to not worry at all about doing the wrong thing and pissing someone off. I can be myself around you and I know you won’t judge me, which is such an amazing feeling. I feel like I can tell you absolutely anything. This leads to the fact that you’re 100% trustworthy, which I love so much. It’s so great to have someone who you can talk to about anything who honestly listens and doesn’t judge you, so I really appreciate you for that.
You’re so smart and intelligent, which I think just adds to your incredibly sexiness. I know you don’t know everything, but it seems like every time I have a problem, I can come to you for a logical solution. You’re always there to help me and teach me something that I didn’t know before, and I really do appreciate you for that as well. You love helping people just as much as I do and it just shows even more how much of an adorable caring person you are!
You truly care about people. There’s *some* people that have been in our lives that deserved to be kicked in the face, but you, just like me, have a hard time being flat out mean even when people really deserve it. You don’t want to be a huge asshole and I LOVE that. I don’t know many guys that try to be a nice person and it’s just so wonderful that you care about people like that. I also love being cared for to the extent that you care about me. You do everything for me that you possibly can, and I cannot begin to tell you how much I appreciate you. You do the horses for me, you cook for me, you watch bounty hunter TV shows just because I want to… there’s not many guys that would do so much for a girl, but you do. I wish I could give you 100 thank you’s for all that you do. Thank you, Adam.
Your kisses just blow me away. You’re definitely the best kisser I’ve ever kissed, and I’m not just saying that. I still remember the first time we kissed: We were laying in my bed, and you tried but I told you that it was too soon. So you stopped trying temporarily then it just kind of happened, and it was possibly the most electrifying kiss I’ve ever experienced in my life. Everything about it was wonderful, and the best part about it is that it still happens every single time you kiss me. They are always either so passionate and loving or adorable and cute, but either way it gives me such an uplifting feeling and I feel as if I’m about to pass out (in a good way, of course). I’ve never had butterflies with a guy this long after being with them before which I think certainly says something. I love feeling your arms around me when we’re kissing or even just hugging and I truly never want to let go of you. You’re a comfort that I’ve never had before and that’s something that I never want to let go of.
I love waking up to you in the morning. I know I’m probably a wreck with my hair being a complete disaster, but when I turn over and your arms are around me and you kiss my forehead, none of that matters. It’s the most relaxing thing in the world to wake up to. I just want to lay there forever and forget the rest of the world. That being said, I LOVE falling asleep with you just as much. I sleep so soundly when you’re around because I feel so safe. You wrap your arms around me and I instantly feel so at ease that I slip right off into a blissful slumber. You’re my absolute favorite blanket; I would sleep with you every single night if I could! I also love what we do sometimes before we fall asleep. You know how absolutely perfect I think all of that is… but I won’t get into it, since this is a public blog. =P
You’re not just my boyfriend, but you’re a great friend also. You keep all my secrets, help me when I need it, cheer me up when I’m upset, and you’re always there for me. I know I can count on you for absolutely anything. You actually listen to me when I talk and that makes me feel appreciated for once in my life. We have so much fun when we’re together, even if we’re just laying on my bed talking about who knows what. You’re so easy to get along with and just being in your presence quickly improves my mood. You’re a great person inside and out and I just can’t get over how lucky I am to have someone like you in my life.
I’m so madly in love with you, Adam. I love you as a friend, I love you as a boyfriend, and I love you in so many ways that I’ve never even felt before. I don’t think time is a good measure of how much you love someone, because we’ve only been together this short time and I already feel so great about you and everything in our relationship. I can’t even imagine what it’ll feel like after we’ve been together for a long time, because the way I feel now is already so phenomenal. You are an angel to me, Adam. I never want to leave your side.
I love you more than you could even imagine. Don’t ever forget that.
